Laura's Shower

I went to Laura's baby shower at her house on Saturday. It was my first outing without Sawyer other than running errands. I kept checking my cell phone and my thoughts kept straying to my little man. Courtney was one of the hostesses. She flew into town Friday morning and stayed with us until Sunday morning. I felt really bad for her because Sawyer was still feeling bad after his shots so he was in a pretty bad mood while she was here. He didn't even really want Lorne holding him Friday or Saturday. I didn't even get a picture of her with him because he kept crying when she held him.

I pumped while I was gone and only got two ounces so that's what led me to go to A Mother's Gift yesterday. I am so discouraged because I can remember when Sawyer was six weeks and younger and I could pump enough (and then some) for his feedings each time. I have so much regret about my left side not working well anymore. It makes me feel like half a person sometimes. I feel like I've been robbed of the true breastfeeding experience.

It was great to see Laura again. I really hope that we can spend more time together as our kids get older. It would be fun to be able to get together with her and trade stories. I hope that she calls me once her baby is born because I am dying to be able to be an "expert" to someone. This motherhood gig is really trial by fire. Some days I have no idea if I'm doing the right thing but I just go with it! :)

Here are some pictures from the shower:


Laura with the hostesses Courtney and Monica.


It feels like just yesterday when I took a picture like this with Courtney and Melissa at my shower.


The proud parents-to-be Laura and Lyndon.