He's Up, I'm Down...What a Deal!

Sawyer and I had our Wednesday routine today. We went to Weight Watchers first. I lost 2.2 pounds this week so that gives me a total of 11.2 in four weeks so I'm really happy with my results. Then it was on to A Mother's Gift. Sawyer weighs 12 pounds 1 ounce. He is up from 11 pounds 10 ounces last Wednesday so that's really good. Not only is his weight up, but he's been sleeping six and seven hours straight the past couple of nights. I don't know if it's just a phase or what, but I am keeping my fingers crossed. I find myself waking up after about four hours and not being able to fall back to sleep because I'm wondering if everything is okay with him. I mean, why is he sleeping so long all of a sudden? I know, I know, it's his age. I swear I really am never happy am I? :)

I feel like the ladies at A Mother's Gift are trying to get rid of me. Am I just being paranoid? Perhaps. Last week Kathy asked me if I was ever going to relax with this so I looked her straight in the eye and told her no! I told her that I could never explain how I felt as a mother when he lost so much weight before. She asked me to look at him and see how good he looks and how alert he is and to stop worrying. Anyone who knows me knows that it is absolutely impossible for me to stop worrying so the joke is on her! She told me to leave and never come back and I know that she was joking around but I still had my feelings hurt. I did a pre and post and he got 90 cc. I told her that I had gone two weeks without doing one so that was an improvement. She told me that I was not allowed back until at least Tuesday so I showed her! I made it until Wednesday! :)

Lisa was there today and she asked me his age as I was getting him ready to weigh. She said that once they're three months we're supposed to start going not by the scale but by how they look and how they're acting. "Blah, blah, blah, I heard that song and dance last week lady," I wanted to say. She said the one-half to one ounce weight gain per day doesn't really apply anymore either since he's getting older. I think that the consultants as a whole see so many people that they really lose the idea of how it feels to go through what we've been through. She said that some babies are more active than others at his age and that can affect their weight gain. I can definitely see that happening to Sawyer because he is always busy, kicking and squirming.

Long story short I don't know what to do. I guess that I should try and start going two weeks without weighing him but I am just too scared. I don't want his weight to drop in the slightest. It's a free service that they provide so I just wish that they would lay off and let me take care of Sawyer in the way that I see fit. I could bring him in everyday if I wanted to and they couldn't stop me!

I'm hoping to get to Curves today for the second time this week. I weigh and measure there every four weeks so I'm looking forward to seeing how many inches I've lost. The inches are just as important as the pounds. I learned that the first time around. We have a short week since Monday was a holiday so it may be a stretch to get my three times in this week. Aunt Tisha and Uncle Larry will be here Friday afternoon so I hate to go while they're here, but I may if I haven't already been my three times. I think that they will understand.

I'm excited that Aunt Tisha will get lots of one-on-one Sawyer time. He really is a joy to be around right now. His smile lights up the room and my heart! What did we ever do before him? Sleep, maybe? :)

Until next time...Kelly