My Mangled Meanderings: Long Night=Long Day

I wanted to post earlier today but we have had a doozie of a day. We actually had a long night and that kind of went into the day. He didn't want to sleep last night for some reason, who knows why. Lorne rocked him for an hour after he fed him his bottle and I nursed him three times, all by 6:00 this morning. Did I mention that it was a long night? A few times yesterday and today he started crying and pulled away while I was nursing him. I'm not sure what to make of that other than what I've read about a change in the taste, but who knows? I'm afraid that it means that he's not getting enough. It always goes back to that when it comes to breastfeeding.

I'm still on the fence by the way. Lorne and I talked about it and think that Sawyer wouldn't even miss it, especially since he's already taking a bottle so well. It would be toughest for me. I would have to wean seven feedings give or take since Lorne is already feeding him once a day. It would probably take a few weeks. I was feeling confident about weaning Friday after talking to Lorie for an hour about it. She is such a great support for me. Then I called A Mother's Gift to ask them about weaning. Hayley called me back and told me that it was still early. I kept thinking that it may seem early to her but not to me. She also said that we've come so far and been through so much. I feel like we can look at that two ways. Sure we've been through so much, but WE'VE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH!! She suggested that I pump every other feeding so as to see how much he's getting during at least half of the feedings. That's all fine and good but I have to do something with Sawyer for the fifteen minutes it takes to pump and he gets very irritated when I have to put him down for that long. Yes he's rotten but that's a whole other story. She called back while I was at Curves and left a message about me renting a scale so that I could do pre and post and weigh him at home, but I never called to check on the rates. It seems silly to go through all that each time. I've just been nursing normally for the past couple of days. We're going to go back and weigh either tomorrow or Wednesday after Weight Watchers. Maybe I will finally be strong enough to make a decision then.

We had a restful weekend. Saturday we went to Posado's which is a Mexican food place. Sawyer was awake while we were eating this time. He usually sleeps through lunch. It wasn't a big deal; we just had to trade off holding him while the other person ate. I ran into Wal-Mart and bought groceries while Lorne sat in the car with Sawyer. We've done that the past few weekends too. It works out really well.

Yesterday I did laundry while Lorne played on the laptop and took care of Sawyer. I wanted to get some cleaning done but I'm sure that I will just wait until the last minute like I always do.

I can't wait for all of our company to get here so that they can see Sawyer these days. He's so much more alert and aware of his surroundings. He's smiling so much more and making lots of cute noises. He really is a ham of a little man. Here are some pictures that we took this weekend. Lorne was trying to get him to hold a rattle that we got from Courtney's parents Barbara and Charles. It's a silver rattle with a giraffe wrapped around it. It is very cute and slim enough that he's able to hold it.