Wake Up Calls

Today was very eye-opening for me. I returned to Weight Watchers to discover that I have...are you ready for this...sixty-two pounds to lose!!! I want to let everyone know that so that I can own up to it and move on. Since I'm a Lifetime member I have until October 9th (Dad's birthday) to get within two pounds of my goal weight. After that I'll have to start paying again. Needless to say I'll have to start paying in October. I went to the Mommy and Me class which Lori leads, but I was kind of hoping to just blend into the background. Lori has been my Leader the whole time. So much for that! Lori told everyone that I was back and reminded them that I was in a Weight Watchers magazine, book, and was literally a poster child. They did an 8x11 poster of me with my before and after pictures and a quote. They sent me a copy. It's really neat. The receptionist told me today that it is still hanging at the Meeting in Arlington. I never got to see it in Plano as I was already pregnant when it came out and was no longer going to meetings. She also had me tell everyone how much weight I lost and the story behind it. I was very embarrassed and all I could think about was how huge I must have looked to everyone there!

Weigh-in is so much different now. Before I wouldn't eat or drink anything until after the noon meeting. I would wear the same exact clothes to weigh-in and bring others to change into. None of that is going to work with Sawyer with me. Not to mention I have to be sure to eat breakfast and drink plenty of fluids while I'm nursing.

I can see how I have that much to lose, though, because I get ten extra points since I'm nursing and even with that I was eight points over today. It's going to be kind of tough since I'm not eating artificial sweeteners. It pretty much adds two or three points to most foods when that isn't included. That's where Flex points come into play. I get thirty-five of those per week. I also returned to Curves today and I get two Activity points for that.

Speaking of Curves, I went for the second time this week. I try and nurse right before I go so that Sawyer will be in good shape while I'm gone. Today I weighed and measured and I weigh just two pounds less than I did when I first joined in March of 2003. I have two more inches to lose as compared to 2003. It took me one year to get to where I was before I got pregnant so I figure that it will take me a year to get back there again. I am discouraged yet encouraged at the same time. I am encouraged and KNOW that I WILL get his weight off, but I am discouraged to think that I have half the weight to lose again. I think that I enjoyed my pregnancy a little too much. It's tough to go to Curves because my before and after pictures are on a poster D'Anna made. She also has a copy of my article in the Weight Watchers book. I'm choosing to use that as inspiration instead of desperation. I'm planning on going to Curves three times a week. It's not like the five or six times I was going, but my priorities have changed somewhat to say the least.


BEFORE: 222 pounds :(


It seems like yesterday I was standing here taking my pregnancy pictures.

I went to a La Leche meeting yesterday. It was quite an experience. I don't want to offend anyone so please don't take my experience the wrong way. There was only one stereotypical "vegetables only eating-hemp wearing-homeschooling-co-sleeping-nursing her three-year-old" mom there. I was expecting that there would be more so I was glad that wasn't the case. There were some moms nursing during the meeting and that was awkward for me too. I'm just still not comfortable enough to do that I don't think. The topic was weaning so I didn't get as much out of it as I would have liked. I may go back next month, though, as they are discussing "The Benefits of Breastmilk." I did talk with a mom named Deanna and she was really nice. I may go back next month to talk with her again. She mentioned that she isn't wanting to nurse her son forever either and that she understood not wanting to nurse in front of strangers. I had to chuckle at a couple of kids who were running around and talking during the meeting and then they would jump up on their mom's laps and nurse for a while and then take off again. It's such a marked contrast from the forty-minute sessions we're having right now. I just feel like if they can ask to nurse they're too old but that is my opinion and my opinions do not necessarily reflect the opinions of Blogger.com. :) I did feel better when two moms were discussing stopping and how emotional that can be. They both began to cry and I could relate to that since we came so close to stopping so soon. One mom mentioned that there is a need for "mourning" when the nursing relationship comes to an end. I'm just hoping to make it to four months at this point since that's probably when we'll be able to start solid foods.

I called to speak with Candy today to schedule my pre and post for tomorrow. She wasn't there but Hayley called back and said that Candy had four consults scheduled and could I come Friday and meet with her. I was frustrated because when I spoke with Candy Monday she didn't have anyone scheduled and said to give her a call Thursday morning. I think I'll call tomorrow morning and see if she can fit me in tomorrow. When I saw Hayley last week she said that she didn't want to tell me anything different and for me to wait and talk with Candy. I think it would make more sense to just wait and meet with Candy again. I'll call tomorrow and see what happens. All I know is that I'm ready to give back the Lactina pump and get back to only pumping twice a day instead of eight.

I'm posting a couple of pics of the little man. I thought I'd play around with the black and white feature:


Here's the grin again for those of you who just can't get enough (myself included!)


Please leave a comment of who you think he looks like...I'm curious about what everyone thinks!