Lorne Can't Go Back to Work; I Won't Let Him!

I can't believe that Lorne is already going back to work this Thursday. I'm starting to panic just a little bit. I'm already thinking about what it's going to be like when he's not here to hold Sawyer while I'm working around the house. I also feel like he's so much better at getting him calmed down than I am. I'm hoping that I will get as good at it when it's just Sawyer and I here at the house all day. He works Thursday and Friday and then he's off again Monday so at least he gets to ease back into working again.

I think that I'll plan on cleaning the house Wednesday to get ready for our visitors since Lorne will still be home. Aunt Net, Uncle Greg, and Tracy are coming Thursday or Friday, Karen and Ed are coming by Friday, and Ty, Jamie, and the kids will be here for the 4th of July weekend. It's going to be a fun couple of days!

My friend Julie gave us a Snugli carrier and I took it out of the box this evening, but it looks pretty complicated. Lorne said he doesn't want me to use it until after my postpartum appointment, but I think I'll be fine before then. My discharge instructions only mention not lifting over ten pounds for the first two weeks. The carrier is made for babies starting at 6 lbs., but I have a feeling he'll be too small for it just like he has been with everything else. I want to eventually take him in it when we go for our walks. I think it will be more of a workout than just pushing the stroller.

I organized Sawyer's notebook today. I put everything in sheet protectors and labeled dividers. The subjects include Pediatric Place, breastfeeding, manuals, baby care, baptism, and a few others. I like the idea of having it available for quick reference when I need it. Plus it looks a lot better than having stacks of paper everywhere. My other projects are writing in his baby book and finishing my Pregnancy Journal. I wrote in it everyday and there's a place at the end where it has questions to answer about labor and delivery. I've even caught myself thinking that I need to write in it as I'm going to bed. It had become such a habit to read the daily entry and write down my thoughts.

It seemed like Sawyer didn't want to latch on today, but I think maybe it's just my imagination. I'm still so worried that he won't want me anymore and he'll just want the bottle. Lorne fed him an extra ounce a couple of times because he was still rooting around after the first ounce. My nursing book mentions that if that happens moms can always do "comfort feeding" whereby the nursing isn't the main source of nourishment, but it's still possible to bond with the baby. That sounds like a good idea but my hope is that it won't come to that. We'll have to see what Candy says on Monday and if he's gained any more weight.