My Mangled Meanderings: Sawyer is Two Weeks Old!

It's hard to believe that he's already been in our lives for two weeks. We went to the pediatrician today and he weighs 6 lbs 4.8 ozs! He gained almost 5 ozs since Tuesday afternoon! That means that all of our hard work and everyone's prayers are paying off.

We're feeding him every 2 1/2 to 3 hours right now. I have been pumping four times a day, but now I pump after each feeding and Lorne feeds him an ounce of that from the bottle. I had a VERY hard time watching him feed from the bottle the first time. I actually had to go upstairs. To say it was traumatic would be too dramatic, but it's just not what I wanted, not this soon anyway. Then again, we've had to do so much adjusting up to this point that I'm beginning to get used to it if that's possible. "Welcome to parenthood" I can hear all the parents saying. :)

Lorne and I did "shift work" so to speak last night and it worked really well. I fed him at 10:00 and then Lorne stayed up and fed him about 1 1/2 ounces from the bottle at 12:30. Lorne put him to bed and went to sleep and listened for the monitor until 4:00 when I got up and took over. I slept in the day bed so that Lorne could sleep soundly. He felt dizzy all day yesterday and even some today. He's going back to the doctor tomorrow morning. We have to get him well! It's so ironic that the man who never gets sick has now been feeling under the weather for over a week now. Not only is he having to adjust to being a father and having a son, he's on a new blood pressure medicine.

I went to sleep around midnight and got FOUR STRAIGHT HOURS of sleep! It was wonderful and it's amazing what some sleep can do for one's mental and emotional state. I have been a wreck this past couple of days because I felt like I was failing our son. We're going to keep up this schedule for the next week because he should be back up to his birth weight by next Thursday. It's almost like he's one week behind because he was supposed to be back to his birth weight by today.

I mailed off the birth announcements, some pictures, and thank you notes today. It's amazing how difficult it has been to do "normal" chores like paying bills, balancing the checkbook, or even checking the mail. Even now while I'm typing I keep glancing at the clock and counting down how much time remains until his next feeding. I KNOW that it won't always be this way, but I'm just ready for breastfeeding to be fun and not so much like a chore. I used to hear women say that they breastfed for a few weeks or a few months, and I didn't think I was judging them, but I thought, "Why didn't they try longer?" Now I know why! IT'S NOT EASY!! I'm not giving up, don't get me wrong, just doing a little venting!

I'm going to try and go back and blog for the past few days that I missed. Keep checking back and hopefully I will be able to get back on track.